Do you live in the past? or the future? or both?
So how many things have you done in the past that you are affecting you now? I’ve done my share. I have let those things torture me for a very long time. It has affected everything I have done in the future. I have hurt family, relationships, jobs, and friends because of my past. It is a heavy burden to continue to drag this weight around. How do you let it go? that’s the hard part. You may have been forgiven by those you hurt or maybe you haven’t. That’s not what this is about.
This is about your forgiveness by you for you, why do you want to continue to self loath. How long are going to persecute yourself? What has happened in the past is just that the past. You have to look at taking the first step forward. I wish it was as easy to do as it was to type it. I am not saying to totally forget the past, your remorse is what will help you to move forward. Look at the people around you, your family and friends your attitude and mind set are affecting them right now. Your mindfulness is controlling everything around you. The more you are miserable and self destructive, the more your life will be miserable and self destructive. This is not about putting on a strong shell so no one can see how your feeling, you can have a shitty day. But choose to work through it, choose to make it better, Choose to appreciate the little things, choose to be happier, choose to let it go. Life is about choices you have made some bad choices, start making good choices. Life isn’t easy, its a challenge you have to wake up every morning and take that challenge and make better choices.
You can search throughout the entire universe
for someone who is more deserving of your love and affection
than you are yourself, and that person is not to be found anywhere.
You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe deserve your
love and affection.
Doc Brown and Marty had the right idea, get a sweet ride and head to the future! Looking at your life and wanting position, materialistic items, a certain life style or thinking when I win the Lottery I will do . . . . ! What a way to set your self up for disappointment, we put so much pressure on our selves for the future. We think so far ahead and most of us don’t have a real plan just a finish line. You can’t have a finish line with out a start line or path. You still need a direction and drive. You need to have goals, you need to have the will, absolutely!Why is that not enough? let life’s ride take you there. Stop forcing life to bend to what you want, that will only work for so long. What happens when life throws a road block in the middle of your path? Are you mindful enough to work through it or are you going to throw in the towel and give up.
This is where I need to be living. Right now, right here. I still have my goals and aspirations. I have things I want to achieve in the future. I don’t set a defined destination or date. I work for them and I know they will come. I live right now, this moment. NOW, know what kind of person I want to be, I know I have the opportunity to make choices that will be positive and affect the people around me. NOW, my past is there to help me, to help me be a better me. I cannot change the past, I cannot delete the past. I just keep moving forward because of the past. I am everything I am today because of the past.
When my eyes open in the morning I know I have another opportunity to be the person I want to be and live the life I want to live! I am alive and now I have the choice to make my life what ever I want it to be, right now.