I sit here at my desk in my apartment looking out the window watching the snow fall to the ground. Its a beautiful amazing day. Fresh snow, crisp air and knowing that the people I love might not all be beside me but they are all around me. Then I start to feel this sadness come over me, How come everyone can’t see how lucky they truly are? You are given a chance every day to change your life, to change your outlook, to be a happier you and to help everyone around you. Time is so precious its the only thing we have no control over. Seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, years, decades! All slip by and when we look back to see nothing but regrets. I should have done this, I wish I did that. Then while you are sitting in the pity pool you’ve created more time slips away from you.

I refuse to let time slip away, do I still have to wake up go to the gym, go to work, pay bills and fulfill my obligations? of course, but I will NOT waste my time. I want to explore this amazing world we live in, I want to meet as many people as I can. I want life to immerse me in all that there is. I often say “there is nothing but time” but I am totally wrong! There is everything else but time. Everyday is gift, every moment a blessing, death is coming to us all, it is just a matter of time. So why would you waste excessive hours and hours in front of a computer or TV. Why would spend time with “friends” that really don’t give a shit about you. Every second of your life is so valuable you have to treat it like so. Your time needs to be more valuable then anything in your possession. You are that valuable! Your time is that valuable so why waste it on materialistic items or friends.

None of this is easy, to really take time and look at who your are and what you want to become isn’t that hard. Putting your effort behind what you want to become is hard. Wanting to change your life or a piece of it is going to take work! It will require you to think every day, to wake up and have a direction and purpose to your life. Do you not want to have a purpose or are you willing to be a drone to life? This is not about goal setting, this isn’t I wanna lose 20 lbs before summer to look good. There is no goal, this is ever changing and striving to go to the next level and then the next level. You have to refuse to settle for a life of mediocrity, you have to choose a life of continual self improvement.

Do not let anyone or anything block you from your path, People will look at you and think your nuts or your “friends” will say you’ve changed. If the people around you do not see that what you are doing is for you, for you to be happy. Then should they really be around you? What you are doing is just for you, this is not to impress people. This is not a shirt to wear or a post on FB. You have to make this for you.

I write this blog for me, I do this cause it really focuses me to see life. I publish this because I know that what I feel and have gone through others must have. We are not so different, no matter who we are or what we have gone through in life. I want people to know that they are not alone and we are all fighting the same fight, to be happy!

When you take that first step into change, that makes you true hero, you become self rewarding. You don’t need anyone to tell you that you are doing a good job! or keep going you can do it! Your results in change and how it makes you feel will become so exhilarating that you will drive to continue this path of self improvement. Time is running away on you, every second that you don’t do anything your happiness is drifting farther and farther away. Who you truly are is getting farther away. So stop wasting time and thinking about regret or what you want to do or become, just take the first step and GO!

Happiness is a mountain, Its the little steps that climb Mountains!

Wanna be Stimulated?

Stimulated!Get your mind out of the gutter, not stimulated in the way you would be with your lover, partner or yourself!!!! I mean is your mind stimulated. So many people live life like this:
Wake up
REPEAT! every day!!!!!!!!
This is not stimulated this is societies cruel joke. We are so brain washed that this is what we are supposed to do. This is how you are to live your life. This is what HAPPY is! Where are you activating your mind? Where is the adventure? Where is the spontaneity? Where are you challenging yourself? When are you actually living? Where are you stimulated? You sit around and dream about better things, about winning the lottery so you can be happy? Talk about what you wanna do if you had this or that, talk about owning more or better materialistic crap, this is not stimulated. You sit around bitching about your life, how much debt you have, how much you hate your job, how you don’t like your body, your relationship sucks. This isn’t stimulated!
You need to be stimulated, when your brain just does the same thing over and over and you do the same thing over and over your brain and body become very slow, soft and mushy!¬†¬†This is the living dead, ZOMBIES! read a book, Fiction is awesome, but you’re keeping your mind in a dream world that fades so fast, read a book that you will learn from!. Write a journal about your feelings or aspirations and how you are going to accomplish them. Get off your ass and go to the gym or for a walk. Meditate! meditation is all about training your mind. Stimulating your self is work it so much easier to sit down in front of the TV or computer and just zone out. That’s just lazy! Figure out what it is you want, and how your going to do it! just decide! Then take the first step!

Now there is an opposite side to this, over stimulated! Again in the right situation this is good! But we are not talking about that. It’s when you take on so much to fill every second of your day. This is tough, always doing something. Multiple jobs, hobbies and extra activities. Busy! busy! busy! Why, cause it keeps your head active so you don’t have to think about life. Then when you eventually do stop, your life hits you like a baseball bat to the back of the head Capone style! It will take courage to learn to stop and control your thoughts and feelings, because you know how much of life’s crappiness comes back to haunt you. But you are stronger than this. Look at what you have done in your life and the mountains you have climbed. Meditation is an amazing tool to help you work through the thoughts and feelings. If you don’t stop and slow down this will be an ever self-destructive path, you will never eat right, sleep right or take care of your self physically or mentally. You will always be running from your own life!

Life is what you make it, you decide how busy you are or if you just sit around. You decide how much you do or don’t do. You control the world you live in and how you live. You can’t blame anyone else for the world YOU created. But YOU do have the power to change your world and make it an amazing beautiful place to live in.